by:  acissej_yeh

 

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I have watched you from afar

You're everything that I’ve ever wanted

A sight of perfection....not a scar

But you've made me feel unwanted

  

Each time I glanced your way

I blushed so hard, but then I froze

The minute you cast that evil smirk and said

"Get lost mudblood, don't get too close!"

 

Your words shoot daggers in my heart

Still throbbing since the very start

I loathe you so much for doing this to me

It's killing me inside, please set me free!

 

 Yet many years have gone by

And you have softened up a bit

Your cold heart is now filled with warmth

Your good side has finally been lit

 

Nowadays, when we pass by each other

You look at me in a different way

It isn’t pride nor is it anger

But it’s sadness that may linger on to stay

 

 Those days have worried me so much

Sleepless nights I've had 

My days seemed somewhat troubled

For I couldn't bear to see you sad

 

One day, I looked for you to see if you were doing okay

I found you sitting on a rock, staring deeply down the lake

I shouldn't disturb your precious thoughts, so I walked away

Sorrow was what I have seen through your eyes, something I just couldn’t take

 

Then sometime in late October

The most unexpected had happened

Something so depressing, it just couldn't be said

For Draco Malfoy was officially dead

 

Your death caused me one heartrending tear

My hopes and dreams have been washed away by a tide

At that moment, I had one immense fear

That you’d never be here at my side

 

Weeks have lapsed, but up till now, I've still been weeping for you

I wanted to kill myself but it wasn't worth it, too

It was hard for me to accept the fact that you'd be gone in my life forever

My heart, my soul, and my mind just couldn’t stand it any longer

 

Maybe dying was one of the events you have waited for in life

Because never again would you encounter so much strife

In the heavens above, I’m sure, you will find perpetual peace

To finally put an end to the misery, you surely won’t miss

 

I haven't figured out why you were so glum before

Even your death is like a mystery that involved unopened doors

Was it your father who did this, who treated you like scum?

Oh, how I wish I could have given you the comfort you’ve yearned so much to come.

 

I hate myself for not telling you how I truly felt

Probably it was the fear of rejection that would make my heart melt

Now I'll have to move on with my life, my life full of regrets

But my love for you that you could have returned back, I would never ever forget.